It's just a magical time to be alive. The snow we got this weekend, being so loved on Valentine's Day. I seem to be overwelmed with joy. The promise I made to "Mark" a few weeks ago: not mentioning the "Marriage" word for a few monthes, is getting easier. It was ridiculously hard at first. How do you stop talking about the one dream that means more to you than life itself? But now that the pressure seems to be lifted from him, he must be finally finding the joy in me again. I now see the love in his eyes he has for me, I feel it in his touch once again and I can almost taste it in his kisses.
I no longer find the need to "rag" him about it at every turn and it seems to have helped tremendously.
Things between he and I are better than they have been in soo long.
It's amazing to me that we have been at this for almost twenty years now, and I am still as in love with him as I was the day he came up behind me at work while I did a crossword puzzle and whispered the answer in my ear. From that moment on I was hooked. I knew he was my soulmate and that no matter what, I would spend the rest of my life loving this man. It's as if God created him souly to be my partner in life. No one else will ever surfice. He is my best friend, my confidant, the best lover I have ever known and knowing he feels the same way of me can never be replaced by any ring or piece of paper. I still long for the day that we make it official, but I know it will come in due time. First his middle daughter must come around. And believe it or not I do believe that it will happen soon enough....I wouldn't dare even want to marry him if it meant alienating her....It wouldn't be worth it. So, I place it in God's hands. May she find a way to want her father to be happy and married to the woman he loves....
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